Anxiety has been my best kept secret for years.
It follows me around, lurking in the shadows, taunting me.
I have laid in the bed numerous nights, praying for God to release this demon that haunts me, praying the pressure in my chest would ease up just enough so I could breathe.
My mind racing so fast, worrying about things beyond my control, and fearing the hypothetical scenarios I made up in my head that could potentially happen one day.
Sound familiar?

When Anxiety first attacked me……

I grew up in rough situations, as many of you have read my story as Sheila’s Daughter, but I didn’t have any anxiety or panic attacks as a child (that I remember). My first visit from the anxiety demon came after my dad passed away in 2003.  I was in the shower late one night, thinking of regrets and  un-forgiveness. Within seconds, I felt a tightening in my chest and my heart started to flutter. In that moment, I was certain I was having a heart attack at 23 years old.

I tried to pray through it but the pain only seemed to manifest and become greater. When I fearfully checked in at the ER front desk, explaining I was having chest pain, the eyes staring back at me were cold as ice and uncaring.  She laughed at me and with a coy tone said, “You are too young to have a heart attack honey, sit right there and I’ll be with you shortly”.

Sitting there, I began to feel stupid.  I sat in the waiting room chair, engulfed in shame and unworthiness for potentially taking away care from those who needed it more than me.

That was the first time anxiety mocked me for feeling ashamed of my situation and reaching out for help.

That which doesn’t kill me….

Lord, I’m strong enough, so we don’t need to keep testing me 😉 Fast forward 14 years, dozens of doctor visits, a few more ER trips,  too many unopened prescription bottles to count, and so many prayers to the Man upstairs – I could fill up a truck load. I still suffer from anxiety but I’m sharing my story because I want US to stop feeling ashamed. It’s not an ugly sweater we wear and can take off at the end of the day.

It’s with us all the time.

We Are not alone

Recently my dear friend + dream team + boss + mentor + soul fueled empire owner, Amber Lilyestrom, shared a live master class she is hosting with Mel Robbins (best selling author of the 5 Second Rule).

I listened intently as Amber told me about this online master class, what it would entail, and why it would be beneficial to me……..

I sat in silence but my mind was chattering like a 3 year old after a visit to the ice cream parlor:

  • wait a best selling author like Mel has suffered from anxiety
  • what you are serious that successful business women have anxiety
  • how can someone like Amber, who inspires so many, be just like me
  • will I be mocked when people find out I have anxiety
  • can you both really help me

As you see, just because no words come out of my mouth, it doesn’t mean that my brain stopped computing thoughts.

I’m not afraid to ask questions, so I asked Amber to give me the low down, down low, dirty deets, and inside scoop. I’m sharing with you because we are frandz…you + me…we are in this thing called life together, so I want to do my part for us all to have clarity + freedom + release of Anxiety (or anything else that holds us back).

anxiety “We will be digging in to how Mel beat 20 years of chronic anxiety by using the Rule. She was on medication for several years, but the 5 Second Rule and her discovery of it gave her the power to cure her anxiety.

The main things we have people write to us about are how the Rule has helped them stop self-doubt and worry, end overthinking and hesitation (speaking up), and allow them to gain control over anxiety and fear.”

Knowledge is power

So Crystal — what IS this class all about and what knowledge I gain from it?

Don’t worry boo  – I got you 🙂

SOUL FUELED CEO™ LIVE MASTERCLASS with Best-Selling Author Mel Robbins

Transform your life & business in 5 seconds (or less)

Monday, Feb. 6 at 7:00 pm ET

Join Amber Lilyestrom for a Soul Fueled CEO™ Masterclass with Mel Robbins, contributing editor to SUCCESS magazine, best-selling author, CNN commentator, creator of the “5 Second Rule” and the busiest female motivational speaker in the world.

In this FREE Masterclass Training you will:

* Discover the two modes in which your brain operates (and how to master this).

* Learn the three ways your brain uses “trickery” to stop action.

* Practice the higher brain function that enables breakthrough performance in your life & business.

* Witness Mel turn fear into action with LIVE Q&A.

* Learn To Use the 5 Second Rule to dramatically transform your business, life and relationships.

Will you be my + 1?

I would love to have you join me for this online master class. I haven’t had the chance to do one of these before so I’m a little nervous and I need a +1 (or +1,000).

Can you be MY friend I can count on? Register HERE

ps- did you catch that one little word I used above (“boss”) when I described who Amber is to me? Yeah, you read that right, but until I can get my emotions together (meaning: I can write without crying the entire time) about this amazing opportunity… are invited to join this Brand Like A Boss group she runs.  You will see why this is such a blessing to me <3





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2 thoughts on “Anxiety Is My Secret Demon

  1. I’m glad someone step out there shell to talk about this.I been dealing with anxiety for years.Crystal thank you

    Posted on February 19, 2017 at 8:18 am
    1. I will keep you in my prayers Davina!

      Posted on March 2, 2017 at 8:45 am